Surviving Bi-Polar Life

I am drowning in my own feelings of resentment and discontent.  Last week my husband who has remained stable for the past three years suddenly turned in his resignation and walked away from his stable teaching job that allowed for copious amounts of family time to take a position that pays $12.50 an hour and keeps him out of the house during the only hours when the kids and I are home.  I feel like he has disemboweled our finances and our marriage.  I want to scream and cry and more importantly I want him to recognize the havoc he has wrought on our household with these impetuous decisions.  I want him to apologize for ruining my stability and my life but instead he shattered our television remote against the wall after I told him that I missed my best friend.  I am married to a rapid cycling bi-polar man with a history of substance abuse.  What I want emotionally and what I get are often very different.  I often find myself subverting my own emotions ...